Emotional Day :) Singing away

At first, the day should only be our department retreat to old folks corner at Queensway but kana hijacked to do another at Assisi Hospice!

The Queensway's one I would say a well planned and organized trip. But abit too organized i guess! haha Best part is the evening trip...

Received an SMS a day before to help in a sing-along session as Assisi Hospice....Hmm....To think of it, maybe its good to face some most avoided misfortune and maybe a practical test for me to face death!

Met new yet great friends ( lotsa counselor :) ) singing along with the patients, celebrating their "LAST" mid-Autumn festival. All the helpers were great, showering genuine care towards the patient.

Met a cheerful old man that keeps trying to sing with us! Here, "trying" b'cos whenever he moves, talk and sing, excruciating pain caused him inability to sink into the festive mood.

After the celebration, we goes to sing in the ward of bedridden patients. A 18yr old young chap, requested us to sing to him. But before we could, he just passed away. We are just a min late! Time is really not a factor that could be controlled.

Then we just jump from ward to ward. Mr Bear just uses his guitars and we just sing along. The first patient to me is "acclimatization". The rest is my "whole" into the wishes, laughters and songs.

Patient after patient, I found that in face of near deaths, these patient's only request is only to hear our voices, maybe just to escape reality for mere moments, or more cheers to fight tomorrow. Some broke to tears when we sing, some gives their brightest smile when we are there. No matter the situation, we just sing.....after all, singing is the only thing we could help them.

I was still having my cough and sore throat and I fear coughing in the ward, I fear not giving my best. Silently I prayed ....... then........i think i did my best! If i were to measure, i think i have sing my best ever!!

Thanks to Heidi, I get to find meaning in singing. I found the meaning to be alive still. To share happiness and hope, and to cheers the warriors of life.

Fear is never felt when fear is just words.
Fear can never be felt when fear has been prepared in time :)

我爱你

Truly loving someone is to let her flaps her wings, seeing her smiles and feeling glad when you know she is happy with her life. Although pain still inevitably lingers but at least you know your love has stood through time and test.

It is never about making your love known but having love someone. A memory that only you will cherish forever.

早上的白云像棉花是的飘浮在泳池的蓝色天空。
好自在的早晨 :)

看这看这，大片的云被风吹散了。
那形成的朵朵小云，在风的吹动下，
又跟其它的小云形成了大片的云。

那过程是毫无任何的支配，
也没有预先的计划。

那分分又合合的画面，
都非常的美。

或许生处的逆境已是事实，
或许随着因缘的变化，
时间的流顺，
会有预料不到的体验 . . . . . . .

Moving on, letting go.

Life's every decision making is about making sacrifices and it only differs in how painful it was. What we want and like to do is always so different from what we need and have to do.

Something just struck me and now I have to make plans, and shelf away all my dreams and interest. But this reality also make me understand "一份耕耘一份收获 ". No achievements in life comes easy and to reach your goal, we just have to do these things that are hassles.

Lotsa of thing happened in just a day! Happiness, guilt, resentment and defeat. Nothing beats the defeat and its the worst of my life ever before. And I shall remember this defeat and never will it happen again . . . . . .

Now is the time to re-chart the path.