Finally reaching the end of my reservist!!! Really missing civilian "work". But still, its a nice ICT.
Due to some health issue, my PES status was brought down. Posted to a new platoon call PSP. Ya PSP, but nothing to do with playstation :S Personally felt uneasy to do clerical work in camp where I was previously a technician for most part of my service. And I still prefer to get my hands on the gears and nuts.
My PSP mates were nice and our PC was especially nice to us. I would say this ICT is a vacation :) There's time to work and ample time to rest.
After this ICT, I still have 9 more to go :( But i suppose I don't mind serving the rest of my army years in this platoon.
In-camp is not too irritating for me but to lead a soldier life is crazy. So, ICT to me is a timely compulsory retreat :)
Anyway downing PES does not justify my fitness! I just don't wish to spend economically efficient time running like a lab mouse...IPPT itself doesn't mean anything after all.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
伴
作詞：姚若龍
作曲：于曉光、李偉菘
編曲：Terence Teo
如果 命運可以訂做
如果 有另一次選擇
我想我 還是會 把手讓你緊握
快樂地陪你去坎坷
就算 你有天變落魄
就算 你老得不能動
我想我 還是會 挽著你看日落
你的心疼在淚光中
嘴巴上 彼此嫌麻煩
眼神中 關懷那麼滿
沒說愛 卻早已認定一輩子的伴
在人前 從來不浪漫
在心中 卻總為對方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴
就算 我以後變囉嗦
就算 我老了有病痛
我想你 還是會 照顧我到最後
隱藏脆弱不眠不休
沒有辛酸 沒有遺憾
什麼是陪伴 什麼是心安 你是答案
Maybe love is just as simple as that ......
The natural chemistry that grows not from temporary flame of passion.
The affirmation from each other till hairs grow white together.
Walking and sharing life together.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Standchart Marathon 2010
Long awaited Standchart Marathon 2010. Again have to run alone after a last min being "fly kite" by my friend :( But relief in a way. Cuz I am a poor pacer. I get tired easily following other people's speeed.The run was massive! Just running the 10K category has 20 000 runners. Along the journey down, whole MRT was packed with runners!! At Dhoby Guat station, its a sight to see two passage of people, one heading towards the North East line towards Sentosa and another one towards Orchard and City Hall.
The MC was good in spicing up the event at the start point. Seems like most runners are in groups making me slightly jealous!!! I think I should organise a FGS running team! hahha
Some thoughts running through my mind. People spent bombs attending motivational talks hoping to get motivated and break a new height in personal performance. I thought the best motivational event should be attending runs! Through the run, one gets energise. Get to know their body and mind better too.
Through perserverance and commitment, one breaks through the boundary of the physical body and toughen the mind. And a run does not cost more than $50!
The run is indeed massive. And I get the thrill over-taking people. Haha! I like the part when there is a long stretch of slope down the bridge.
Clock a timing of 1hr 12 mins. Never really tour the site after the run and just head home for another event!
Run for Hope 2010
Day start early refreshingly for the race event "Run for Hope". It is a 6 and 10K run focus on benefiting Cancer patients, care and research.Opt for 6K as was suppose to run with 2 friends but was not available on that day......haiz But oh well I still manage to enjoy the run!!
The route is along the beach of East Coast. Tried to run fast to prevent my face from facing the raising sun. Running under basking sunlight is nice too!! Feels very fresh and healthy. Tried to run with consistent speed but have to walk for a few part of the journey! Age is really catching up.
What I like about this run is its emphasis on charitable cause. The running tee is fully printed with sponsors! The race is also rather motivational as you can see disabled people participating the race. The demographics of the run participants come from all age range and a good mix of sexes. The main bulk are young energetic teens.
And look what I found after the run!! Sand castles!!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Gone with the wind...
Love is something very abstract yet everyone's desire. The more you try to grasp, the more it distant itself. And when you thought you have won at last, yet it is still not really yours. A gust of wind, everything just vanish.
Yet to the one that throds the path, they never regret. A journey that leads to self discovery, a journey that teaches how to let go.
Passion is something really fragile and so unsustainable. Just when you are thinking of how much reason to love someone, next moment you might have been thinking of how much reason to prove that he is not the one. And it makes no difference whether any reason is found in the end.
Maybe a failed episode leads to a better stage next round, but how tired it is to be in and out again.
Not knowing what went wrong, makes the pain more enduring. And letting go might just be the only way to preserve what that is only yours, self-respect for oneself and her.
Yet to the one that throds the path, they never regret. A journey that leads to self discovery, a journey that teaches how to let go.
Passion is something really fragile and so unsustainable. Just when you are thinking of how much reason to love someone, next moment you might have been thinking of how much reason to prove that he is not the one. And it makes no difference whether any reason is found in the end.
Maybe a failed episode leads to a better stage next round, but how tired it is to be in and out again.
Not knowing what went wrong, makes the pain more enduring. And letting go might just be the only way to preserve what that is only yours, self-respect for oneself and her.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
有人為妳偷偷在哭
悲伤或许并非是一个人的痛苦。
伤心不只是因为看到别人对你的不好，
而是怪自己没资格让你快乐。
不能给的关心，
只能在距离中默默的在乎。
也许一个过路的人，
没权利参与你要走的路。
或许幸福对他而言，
就是能在允许的范围里，
带给她微笑的可能。
Monday, August 2, 2010
After Shock
Nice movie outing with Children class teacher on Sunday! Caught the show "After Shock" and we are got emotionally shock! haha!
It was a show about how the survivors of the quake continue their lives and struggling with the sorrows of their families lost in the quake. Some nice moments to share!
There was this scene where the mother can only choose to rescue either the sis or the bro. In the end, just before the rescue team wana give up on the indecisive mother, the mother choose to save the bro. And the ending, there was another similar case where the mother choose to saw away her child's leg to free her and not to worsen the other victims life. I believe these decision to a mother is tough. Its akin to making a dying decision.
Sometimes in a more siblings family, some will feel that the mother was not fair or being better to the other child. But this show clearly showed that a mother would never practise favorism since all are her child. And if she can die for them she will gladly choose to. Since losing anyone is dying to her.
There is this scene where the husband choose to push her wife away and go alone to rescue the kids. I thought it was the true projection of true love. Willing to scarifice for his love ones.
The show sets you gripping your chair since the first few scenes and will knock your emotions very hard. It makes you realise the meaning of uncondition love. All this sweet nothings about loving each other will get tested when such disasters strike. All our pursue of personal interest gets crumbled with the buildings.
Large part of the show is also about the gal resenting her mum. But upon knowing the truth and seeing her old and fray mum, she was very regretful. Family is not jut a home for our bodily rest but also a place we felt save for our emotions to take refuge. There should never overnight quarrels and hatred among the members as it always hurts the most. Sometimes hatred is sustained even by misunderstanding due to not airing out our opinions.
The show end with a song "心经"by Faye Wong. I thought it suits the show really well. In understanding emptiness, we know how worldly possession gets lose very easily. By realising emptiness, reconstructions can be done and families can be rebuilt.
We learnt not seeking help from higher powers in time of need but we learn by understanding our sufferings and grow up from these sufferings. Only then we develop as a whole in a wholesome way and not relying on external factors.
It was a show about how the survivors of the quake continue their lives and struggling with the sorrows of their families lost in the quake. Some nice moments to share!
There was this scene where the mother can only choose to rescue either the sis or the bro. In the end, just before the rescue team wana give up on the indecisive mother, the mother choose to save the bro. And the ending, there was another similar case where the mother choose to saw away her child's leg to free her and not to worsen the other victims life. I believe these decision to a mother is tough. Its akin to making a dying decision.
Sometimes in a more siblings family, some will feel that the mother was not fair or being better to the other child. But this show clearly showed that a mother would never practise favorism since all are her child. And if she can die for them she will gladly choose to. Since losing anyone is dying to her.
There is this scene where the husband choose to push her wife away and go alone to rescue the kids. I thought it was the true projection of true love. Willing to scarifice for his love ones.
The show sets you gripping your chair since the first few scenes and will knock your emotions very hard. It makes you realise the meaning of uncondition love. All this sweet nothings about loving each other will get tested when such disasters strike. All our pursue of personal interest gets crumbled with the buildings.
Large part of the show is also about the gal resenting her mum. But upon knowing the truth and seeing her old and fray mum, she was very regretful. Family is not jut a home for our bodily rest but also a place we felt save for our emotions to take refuge. There should never overnight quarrels and hatred among the members as it always hurts the most. Sometimes hatred is sustained even by misunderstanding due to not airing out our opinions.
The show end with a song "心经"by Faye Wong. I thought it suits the show really well. In understanding emptiness, we know how worldly possession gets lose very easily. By realising emptiness, reconstructions can be done and families can be rebuilt.
We learnt not seeking help from higher powers in time of need but we learn by understanding our sufferings and grow up from these sufferings. Only then we develop as a whole in a wholesome way and not relying on external factors.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Inception
A terrific film for someone that prefer to do nothing and spent moments thinking of nothing! Muhaha. But this film is definitive an award winner. All the graphics, CGs, actions, story plots were really one of its kinds. Although it raises numerous questions after watching it, but I could say its the best film in explaining our subconcious world.
Some thoughts after the show. Even in our "real" life, we are constantly battling to be real. We want things our way, wanting others to accept our way and incertain sense bringing own's perceived of reality on to others, which is often impossible. The results will be in conflict with others and also our mind.
Before we sleep we want to change things to our liking, but in dream our mind did a good job in fabricating your perceived reality. The catch is, how many can be in control of their dream? Even those that claim to be in full control, their actions are driven by denial, fear and desire.
When things go bad, some chose to face it bravely. Some chose to withdraw and hide. Those that choose to withdraw, can they really be "out" of their problem? The same problem or problems stem from these primodial problems keeps hunting them.
The mind work strangely yet bluntly. When you say don't think of someone. But your mind will think of that someone. The mind seems to zoom into the subject in question and knock out all the suggestive terms like want or don't want.
Thus, my idea of a constructive thoughts are thinking about something opposite of the subject. Simply, when you want to forget an elephant, play with any other animals :) Our thoughts proliferates by intensity of the stimuli. Maybe just relaxingly or thinking of that someone will one day faint it. Just do not spend extra effort to forget which will only worsen it.
Last but not least, always bear a positive mind. A slight anger or hatred will grow in the mind. Seeing things as they really are. Things usually don't come sabotaging your life unless you invite them to. Be mindful in the change of our thoughts. We can't really stop a thought but under training, we can actually decide where the train wants to bring us. And of course, if you want happiness, liberation, attachments even to ideas can never help :)
Some thoughts after the show. Even in our "real" life, we are constantly battling to be real. We want things our way, wanting others to accept our way and incertain sense bringing own's perceived of reality on to others, which is often impossible. The results will be in conflict with others and also our mind.
Before we sleep we want to change things to our liking, but in dream our mind did a good job in fabricating your perceived reality. The catch is, how many can be in control of their dream? Even those that claim to be in full control, their actions are driven by denial, fear and desire.
When things go bad, some chose to face it bravely. Some chose to withdraw and hide. Those that choose to withdraw, can they really be "out" of their problem? The same problem or problems stem from these primodial problems keeps hunting them.
The mind work strangely yet bluntly. When you say don't think of someone. But your mind will think of that someone. The mind seems to zoom into the subject in question and knock out all the suggestive terms like want or don't want.
Thus, my idea of a constructive thoughts are thinking about something opposite of the subject. Simply, when you want to forget an elephant, play with any other animals :) Our thoughts proliferates by intensity of the stimuli. Maybe just relaxingly or thinking of that someone will one day faint it. Just do not spend extra effort to forget which will only worsen it.
Last but not least, always bear a positive mind. A slight anger or hatred will grow in the mind. Seeing things as they really are. Things usually don't come sabotaging your life unless you invite them to. Be mindful in the change of our thoughts. We can't really stop a thought but under training, we can actually decide where the train wants to bring us. And of course, if you want happiness, liberation, attachments even to ideas can never help :)
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Life after exam!!
Back to blogging! Free man finally ...at least till the verdict is out on Sept....but I am more confidence the result should not give me another heart attack.
So nice! After my exam on thur, Grace organised a KTV outing!! Singing is still my best way to let out steam! I know I was screaming horribly but who cares! hahaha!! If I am good I would not be studying and working now :(
Here comes Saturday where I woke up naturally! No need alarms to wait me up for work or study! Then went for a relaxing swim. Decided to choose the early noon to go to avoid seeing my student again (So embrassing)! Its just so nice to do some tanning and tunning to nice bossanova + do some fav reading as well! Maybe can consider moving into a condo with a pool next time :P but......I will need to sacrifice the neighbourhood feel of HDB.
Meet up with the P.Park gangs finally on evening...... Mike sir say i became more skinny! Miko shared his brazillian wax feel! Ouch!! Just don't understand wats wrong with being hairy!! The Durian Puree!! So nice...!! It taste so rich!! But hor the taste does not linger in the mouth very long. Don't noe why. The taste was great! Wah time really flies and our gang know each other for some time liao! Met Miko since K1, Shuli since sec skool, Dengli since army time and Mike sir for at least 2 to 3 yrs at least! We must meet up frequently!!
Life of a city man was really growing very monotonous and boring for me.....study and work plus some volunteering.....to add more spice in life also no time. To think about the journey ahead.....if nothing changes, maybe I will die of boredom real soon.
So nice! After my exam on thur, Grace organised a KTV outing!! Singing is still my best way to let out steam! I know I was screaming horribly but who cares! hahaha!! If I am good I would not be studying and working now :(
Here comes Saturday where I woke up naturally! No need alarms to wait me up for work or study! Then went for a relaxing swim. Decided to choose the early noon to go to avoid seeing my student again (So embrassing)! Its just so nice to do some tanning and tunning to nice bossanova + do some fav reading as well! Maybe can consider moving into a condo with a pool next time :P but......I will need to sacrifice the neighbourhood feel of HDB.
Meet up with the P.Park gangs finally on evening...... Mike sir say i became more skinny! Miko shared his brazillian wax feel! Ouch!! Just don't understand wats wrong with being hairy!! The Durian Puree!! So nice...!! It taste so rich!! But hor the taste does not linger in the mouth very long. Don't noe why. The taste was great! Wah time really flies and our gang know each other for some time liao! Met Miko since K1, Shuli since sec skool, Dengli since army time and Mike sir for at least 2 to 3 yrs at least! We must meet up frequently!!
Life of a city man was really growing very monotonous and boring for me.....study and work plus some volunteering.....to add more spice in life also no time. To think about the journey ahead.....if nothing changes, maybe I will die of boredom real soon.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Spirit of Zhi Char lady we can all learn :P
Just when working = bad and moody days, maybe we can draw inspiration from other walks of life :) From there maybe we can re-assess what is a sucky job.
While I was waiting for my orders a "zhi Char lady" caught my eyes. Just a span of maybe 5 to 10 mins, this lady did
1) Recommendation of food to the diners.
2) Taking take-away orders.
3) Delivering the prepared food
4) Organising the orders
5) Pacifying the waiting take-aways.
and . . .
got a scolding by one of the customer till she broke into tears....
walk away for a min, back with red eyes and repeat the above tasks again.
Can clearly sees that she was "postponing" her frustration in order to keep up her service in one of the most busiest day (mothers' day).
Maybe we can just say she is in the service sector, no choice.....but when we experience complaints from our superior or colleagues, can we continue to function in such manners.
Reflecting on our SG service sector, does our reatailer have such values? Anyway that gal seems to be a "PRC". Next time we label a person PRC maybe see what we can learn than where they are from :)
While I was waiting for my orders a "zhi Char lady" caught my eyes. Just a span of maybe 5 to 10 mins, this lady did
1) Recommendation of food to the diners.
2) Taking take-away orders.
3) Delivering the prepared food
4) Organising the orders
5) Pacifying the waiting take-aways.
and . . .
got a scolding by one of the customer till she broke into tears....
walk away for a min, back with red eyes and repeat the above tasks again.
Can clearly sees that she was "postponing" her frustration in order to keep up her service in one of the most busiest day (mothers' day).
Maybe we can just say she is in the service sector, no choice.....but when we experience complaints from our superior or colleagues, can we continue to function in such manners.
Reflecting on our SG service sector, does our reatailer have such values? Anyway that gal seems to be a "PRC". Next time we label a person PRC maybe see what we can learn than where they are from :)
Friday, April 9, 2010
Love me, Collin Raye
Ain't this song beautifully composed! As beautiful as the stories goes.....A love story of two love birds. Death doesn't seems to do them apart but rather prove their deep love for each other.
How hard it is to meet someone that shares the vision, goes all out no matter what the future holds. Believing that the other will wait. Holding hands, greying together, even to the very end.....
Delegate to all my friends that wil be crossing to the next path of their life :)
Saturday, March 20, 2010
If we have tomorrow...
If we know tomorrow never comes by again, what will we do? Maybe we will appreciate life even better. Every second counts and every step cherished. Every praise generously given and every help to others will be spontaneous.
Then what if we know tomorrow will come? Does everything goes the opposite? So is life a gift or maybe a gift being exploited, taken for granted.
How about the tomorrow's of our love ones? What happen if we know their tomorrow might not come tomorrow? Or our tomorrow ceased to be theirs?
Monday, March 15, 2010
Who is the winner ??
You can win a person by strength and you are said to be strong.
You can win a person by talks and you are said to be eloquent.
You can win a person by wits and you are said to be smart.
But if you win a person by virtue, you can be known as wise.
And someone that is wise do not mind;
losing physically, verbally, mentally for he wins the situation.
You can win a person by talks and you are said to be eloquent.
You can win a person by wits and you are said to be smart.
But if you win a person by virtue, you can be known as wise.
And someone that is wise do not mind;
losing physically, verbally, mentally for he wins the situation.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Points to take note :(
Previously the Pastor saga now Jack Neo's sage! I love Singapore. There is always something to look out for :) But I thought the previous "Big" happenings in Singapore since more relevant to our lives and thus sad to say I really can't be bothered with him.
What's eye catching is the amount of news created, comments all up on forums and nowadays most vineyard chatters are on him. I even joked that Singaporean seems to pay more attention to Jack than our SG Budget release. Maybe b'coz he made Singapore "proud" once again?
Chats on him and names called upon him makes me wonder what actually is the media thinking about? What really goes through the mind of people calling him names and series of defamation. Juz caught a vid that uses his previous glamourous interview to be twisted into something so defaming! Was rather mad about it. And the information projected out from the vid was nothing educational and in fact pollutes the mind of anyone seeing it especially to the children using Facebook. I even thought of why Facebook does not synchronise such spread of information.
When seeing what's happening around us, the news and the rumors, that shows how vulnerable is the mind to gossips. It may appear harmless. But calling names to others does makes one in the light as well.
What's eye catching is the amount of news created, comments all up on forums and nowadays most vineyard chatters are on him. I even joked that Singaporean seems to pay more attention to Jack than our SG Budget release. Maybe b'coz he made Singapore "proud" once again?
Chats on him and names called upon him makes me wonder what actually is the media thinking about? What really goes through the mind of people calling him names and series of defamation. Juz caught a vid that uses his previous glamourous interview to be twisted into something so defaming! Was rather mad about it. And the information projected out from the vid was nothing educational and in fact pollutes the mind of anyone seeing it especially to the children using Facebook. I even thought of why Facebook does not synchronise such spread of information.
When seeing what's happening around us, the news and the rumors, that shows how vulnerable is the mind to gossips. It may appear harmless. But calling names to others does makes one in the light as well.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
当初现在的回忆
一枚戒指的誓言，一时对永远的承诺。
那在一起是为了爱情，还是为自己的选择负责？
变质的爱情是因为看得更清楚，
还是对彼此感情的坦白？
选择接受一个陌生人进入自己的世界，
是为了彼此之间的回忆，还是为了创造回忆？
如果默契都无法有结果，
那突然的爱情会更有所期待吗？
未知带来的爱情，或许带来了未知的感动。
可是是爱情创造了感动，还是感动创造了爱情？
。
。
。
填满了的杯是否已干了，还是一直都还满这？
那在一起是为了爱情，还是为自己的选择负责？
变质的爱情是因为看得更清楚，
还是对彼此感情的坦白？
选择接受一个陌生人进入自己的世界，
是为了彼此之间的回忆，还是为了创造回忆？
如果默契都无法有结果，
那突然的爱情会更有所期待吗？
未知带来的爱情，或许带来了未知的感动。
可是是爱情创造了感动，还是感动创造了爱情？
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。
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填满了的杯是否已干了，还是一直都还满这？
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
I am expecting.....doc say it will deliver in 2.5yrs time :(
Feel like a pregnant woman now! Even by swallowing my saliva makes me feel like puking! Went to the dentist today to do my upper braces and I thought it would just be the same as the lower ones. But who knows I have a metal piece on my upper jaw that points inward just like a finger irritating my throat!
Now if anyone wants to lose weight and do not want the trouble of using your fingers to induce puking, try putting on braces :) Now just hope my tongue will try its very best to accomodate this new "furniture" in my mouth coz I think I will have it in my mouth for the next 2.5yrs. Enough time to have to pregnancy :P
More "furniture" means more corners to clean too. Just tried and found out even my dental picks can not reach them. Good news comes in pairs :( Now all my four side of molar are in pain too. Merely shutting my mouth gives a slight tightness and pain sensation. A prelude to impacting wisdom tooth??
How can I enjoy bah kua and my department retreat next week ?? :(
Now if anyone wants to lose weight and do not want the trouble of using your fingers to induce puking, try putting on braces :) Now just hope my tongue will try its very best to accomodate this new "furniture" in my mouth coz I think I will have it in my mouth for the next 2.5yrs. Enough time to have to pregnancy :P
More "furniture" means more corners to clean too. Just tried and found out even my dental picks can not reach them. Good news comes in pairs :( Now all my four side of molar are in pain too. Merely shutting my mouth gives a slight tightness and pain sensation. A prelude to impacting wisdom tooth??
How can I enjoy bah kua and my department retreat next week ?? :(
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Cheong ah!
Concept of New Year is marvelous. A good way or at least a good reason to start afresh. Anyone can have a new look, new hairdo and best of all a new resolution for being better. One can argue that goals can be set anytime of the year but setting it in a new year just give a more "auspicious" drive forward.
Although we often do not set goals that will fail, but the fire for the goal often fades off rather rapidly with the celebrations. But even failure to reach the goal after a short moment is better than no goals at all.
I once read that goals have to be high and difficult so that the result is better. But that often leads to dissappointment. A goal that is too generic and easily achieveable does not give the extra leap forward. Maybe happiness and achievement is about knowing yourself and setting reasonable goals.
New year is also the best way to get in touch with friends and relatives :)
Although we often do not set goals that will fail, but the fire for the goal often fades off rather rapidly with the celebrations. But even failure to reach the goal after a short moment is better than no goals at all.
I once read that goals have to be high and difficult so that the result is better. But that often leads to dissappointment. A goal that is too generic and easily achieveable does not give the extra leap forward. Maybe happiness and achievement is about knowing yourself and setting reasonable goals.
New year is also the best way to get in touch with friends and relatives :)
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Sad SG
After our reunion dinner on eve of CNY, our family met with something interesting on our way home :) Sparks up some interesting discussion after that as well.......but a rather thought provoking and sad ones.
CNY eve is the day for most chinese to have our reunion dinner where the whole family will try their very best to crowd around the steamboat for a very cosy dinner :) But we met a guy about late 20s trying to get some $ from other passenges. His excuse initially was to get $10 for transport fare but of course I turned him down reason being why you need $10 unless you want to take a cab.
Then after several rejections, he called up a friend talking about wanting to lend $100 to spend the CNY with his mum thats hungry at home. After his friend agreed, he asked us for some coins to make his way there. And we just pooled our coins together.
Interesting part is during his "begging" process, some people was in fact shunning him, being sarcastic and hurling remarks at him. And later after we alight, found from my 2 brothers (Ex police force NS) that he might have just been released from prison!
Everyone goes through rough patch before and we all want help from someone at times. But no one on the bus gave him any on our family are the only one that pooled some coins at the end for his trip.
Now where is compassion? He's action was non-abusive, rather polite and not at all persistent. And we can all feel sadness in him. He even wants our contact to return us next time. Some might say giving him is unwise as he might be a cheat. But I suppose our world has been filled with well attired cheats. Our economic system was crush just recently by institutional cheats.
It is rather saddening not because of this poor man but what has people grown to become? Being cold or rather so full of pride, not sparing a thought for the under-privilege. We are well praised for our education system but how about our basic humanity and kinship?
If indeed he was so poor, just hope he could just quickly reach home to give his mum a nice and warm reunion dinner :)
CNY eve is the day for most chinese to have our reunion dinner where the whole family will try their very best to crowd around the steamboat for a very cosy dinner :) But we met a guy about late 20s trying to get some $ from other passenges. His excuse initially was to get $10 for transport fare but of course I turned him down reason being why you need $10 unless you want to take a cab.
Then after several rejections, he called up a friend talking about wanting to lend $100 to spend the CNY with his mum thats hungry at home. After his friend agreed, he asked us for some coins to make his way there. And we just pooled our coins together.
Interesting part is during his "begging" process, some people was in fact shunning him, being sarcastic and hurling remarks at him. And later after we alight, found from my 2 brothers (Ex police force NS) that he might have just been released from prison!
Everyone goes through rough patch before and we all want help from someone at times. But no one on the bus gave him any on our family are the only one that pooled some coins at the end for his trip.
Now where is compassion? He's action was non-abusive, rather polite and not at all persistent. And we can all feel sadness in him. He even wants our contact to return us next time. Some might say giving him is unwise as he might be a cheat. But I suppose our world has been filled with well attired cheats. Our economic system was crush just recently by institutional cheats.
It is rather saddening not because of this poor man but what has people grown to become? Being cold or rather so full of pride, not sparing a thought for the under-privilege. We are well praised for our education system but how about our basic humanity and kinship?
If indeed he was so poor, just hope he could just quickly reach home to give his mum a nice and warm reunion dinner :)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
狗男女
小狗狗的真挚爱情，伴侣临死的依依不舍，真让人感慨。
我们人类所向往与感动的爱情故事既然浮现在我们视为畜生的狗狗上。
想着想着，当不幸发生在我们身上时，会有同样的态度与行动吗？
或许会在滥用我们所说的理智，觉得她死了，最多叫个救伤车，
哭得凄凄惨惨，但如果跟狗狗的真挚爱情呢？那无奈的悲痛 。 。 。
爱情当然不在于掉多少的眼泪，而是言语与行动无法表达的默契。
那最初的相遇如果建立在肌肤的渴望与爱恋，这所谓的默契会在吗？
那如果已在恋爱中的情侣，因为有了时间的彼此了解，
而发现身边的他有了无法改变的问题，是包容任命，还是选择放弃？
包容任命能够白头谐老吗？那选择放弃就能找到心议的对象吗？
Sunday, January 31, 2010
佛光山新加坡成果展2010
成果展2010 @ FGS has successfully brought to a close but I believe its a great way to charge up the year, with prosperity and kinship in the participants' life. The world has not really successfully buck itself up of the economic malstrom. Religion itself will prove to provide emotional support as well as gearing people towards having a more meaning life.
This annual event in FGS is one of the greatest higlight of the year where preparation alone takes up lots of time, effort and co-operations among all participants. Below are some smiles taken on the event :)
This is no scene from some charity show or large scale Chinese New Year live telecast but our very own theme for the event.
Its rather hard nowadays to expect the younger gen to celebration the traditional festival together with harmony and laughters. In FGS, it is a rather common sight and family values are an important emphasis in the temple's activity. But I do observe younger parents nowadays tend to have lesser barrier with their child and family ties seems get stronger. 
Involving in the temple's events indeed steal personal time and sleeps for some. But I believe its all worth it. Instead of being the "loyal supporter" of the shopping malls or crouch potatoes infront of the soup operas, helping out in the temple makes the weekend more anticipating and living life with more colours and warmth.
This annual event in FGS is one of the greatest higlight of the year where preparation alone takes up lots of time, effort and co-operations among all participants. Below are some smiles taken on the event :)
This is no scene from some charity show or large scale Chinese New Year live telecast but our very own theme for the event.
成果展 as the name suggests its a day where we showcase what we have learnt throughout the past year as well as a way to give back to the temple for the classes that had benefited us. As it usually coincides with CNY, we will make it an event to celebrate the New Year as well. 威德福海is this year's theme that ven master XinYun has given to us. It matches well to the upcoming year of the Tiger as well as the vigor we need to face upcoming ch
allenges in life and our spiritual pursue.
allenges in life and our spiritual pursue.This is our temple's very own Youthianz heating up the atmosphere with their jamming. They indeed spent lots of effort in this and from what I know they do not really have a teacher to lead them. From dancing and singing, this jamming really give us a surprise on how united and capable they are.
Its rather hard nowadays to expect the younger gen to celebration the traditional festival together with harmony and laughters. In FGS, it is a rather common sight and family values are an important emphasis in the temple's activity. But I do observe younger parents nowadays tend to have lesser barrier with their child and family ties seems get stronger. Kidz in the temple are very obedient yet very smart. They dance, sing and could even do recital, not forgetting chantings and rituals as well. Would be interesting to see how these buds of our future bloom into beautiful flowers sharing their frangrance to our community.
This is our very own choir group that has been my main activities I engaged in, in the temple. All thanks to our teacher Kellyn, tuning our coarse vocals into enchanting musics as well as being our "busy" image consultant. Our glamorous outfit was her credit and the kinship was the result of our contribution towards the choir group. It is just like a small family where it injects some passion and life into our cold working life. The choir comprise of mainly working adults and its definitely very hard to get everyone together for performance.
Involving in the temple's events indeed steal personal time and sleeps for some. But I believe its all worth it. Instead of being the "loyal supporter" of the shopping malls or crouch potatoes infront of the soup operas, helping out in the temple makes the weekend more anticipating and living life with more colours and warmth.
"With regard to external factors, I don't envision any other single factor like friendship with admirable people as doing so much for a monk in training, who has not attained the heart's goal but remains intent on the unsurpassed safety from bondage. A monk who is a friend with admirable people abandons what is unskillful and develops what is skillful."
— Iti 17
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Killing my loyal servants!
Morning starts with heart pounding and restlessness. Unable to concentrate well due to the thought of visiting the dentist for extraction. Mind not really cluttered with fear but more like the anticipation of something thats going to happen and must happen.
Visiting my dentist at VictoriaDental, at their new branch in rivervale mall which was rather accesible from my place. But I have to say I still prefer the cosy feel at Shenton Way. Greeted by friendly staff and Dr Chye just seat me down to prepare for the "battle". The price I thought was damn cheap! Extraction, scaling and polishing just sum to about $130!! It definitely was not the market rate! But service was never discounted.
I describe the extraction as easy as cutting my toe nail. Pain was only during the administering of anesthesia but just a slight pinching feel. A trainee dentist just whole my head still while Dr Chye just use a piler to shake it out! And all I feel was slight pressure and both tooth came out consecutively.
Something struck me when I observe the process. There is a feeling of lost. A voidness that something that has been with me for life was removed. It was doing well in the mouth and it was pulled out just because my mouth need space for adjustment. Now to amplify the same feeling decorated with immense love, was that how a mum will feel when a developing and moving baby just being removed from her womb? :)
I suppose human being, a habitual animal creates attachments to anyone and anything. The feeling of lost does happen even to dead objects like the teeth. Or for me, its just a gratitude to how these 2 loyal tooth had served me well with no problems. I symbolised the profusing bleeding happening now as my mouth sobbing for the departure of their close ones.
Not a pleasant day but definitely a memorable one :) Ouching now my head is heavy. Maybe now my head is starting to feel sad too.
Visiting my dentist at VictoriaDental, at their new branch in rivervale mall which was rather accesible from my place. But I have to say I still prefer the cosy feel at Shenton Way. Greeted by friendly staff and Dr Chye just seat me down to prepare for the "battle". The price I thought was damn cheap! Extraction, scaling and polishing just sum to about $130!! It definitely was not the market rate! But service was never discounted.
I describe the extraction as easy as cutting my toe nail. Pain was only during the administering of anesthesia but just a slight pinching feel. A trainee dentist just whole my head still while Dr Chye just use a piler to shake it out! And all I feel was slight pressure and both tooth came out consecutively.
Something struck me when I observe the process. There is a feeling of lost. A voidness that something that has been with me for life was removed. It was doing well in the mouth and it was pulled out just because my mouth need space for adjustment. Now to amplify the same feeling decorated with immense love, was that how a mum will feel when a developing and moving baby just being removed from her womb? :)
I suppose human being, a habitual animal creates attachments to anyone and anything. The feeling of lost does happen even to dead objects like the teeth. Or for me, its just a gratitude to how these 2 loyal tooth had served me well with no problems. I symbolised the profusing bleeding happening now as my mouth sobbing for the departure of their close ones.
Not a pleasant day but definitely a memorable one :) Ouching now my head is heavy. Maybe now my head is starting to feel sad too.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Debugging "Financial Freedom"
Before the "debugging" process lets look at another term that people comes up with to just feel different. Financial independence is the word but I find it even harder to comprehend. Then how can we succeed base on a condition that can never happen.
To be financially independent means you no longer need to depend on money. But is it possible? Warren Buffett, a billionaire is just a man with no money if you ask him to give up every single cent he has. Anyone that still receives salary is dependent on salary and anyone that relies on investment dividends, interest or any form of revenue is still dependent on that income.
Financial freedom makes more sense. To be financially free means you have the freedom to spend when you want to. That means after taking care of all liabilities and expenses, every excess dollar is freedom for spending. That also means any possible liabilties that have the potential to incur, for example planning for a marriage.
But if financial freedom depends on amount of liabities, then the equation makes more sense if we were to control expenses and liabilities then how much we earn. Just imagine sudddenly someone received a fortune and had a million in his pocket, can we safely say the 1 million will always be 1 million? Is the 1 million going to last forever.
Financial freedom being something that is rather numerical, I see it more as a perspective or a mental state. If that man having a sudden wind fall and has a million and because having that million picks up habits like playing with sports car, he's fortune will run dry just as quickly as someone with only a $100 but spends his time lazing around.
And if simply lumping financial freedom to being able to be happy then happiness can just run dry just like spending the million. When we are a child, what makes us happy? A dollar note or just being able to have milk to satify the hunger?
How about next time when someone ask you whether you want to be financially free, try asking back what he means by financially free and has he achieve that?
To be financially independent means you no longer need to depend on money. But is it possible? Warren Buffett, a billionaire is just a man with no money if you ask him to give up every single cent he has. Anyone that still receives salary is dependent on salary and anyone that relies on investment dividends, interest or any form of revenue is still dependent on that income.
Financial freedom makes more sense. To be financially free means you have the freedom to spend when you want to. That means after taking care of all liabilities and expenses, every excess dollar is freedom for spending. That also means any possible liabilties that have the potential to incur, for example planning for a marriage.
But if financial freedom depends on amount of liabities, then the equation makes more sense if we were to control expenses and liabilities then how much we earn. Just imagine sudddenly someone received a fortune and had a million in his pocket, can we safely say the 1 million will always be 1 million? Is the 1 million going to last forever.
Financial freedom being something that is rather numerical, I see it more as a perspective or a mental state. If that man having a sudden wind fall and has a million and because having that million picks up habits like playing with sports car, he's fortune will run dry just as quickly as someone with only a $100 but spends his time lazing around.
And if simply lumping financial freedom to being able to be happy then happiness can just run dry just like spending the million. When we are a child, what makes us happy? A dollar note or just being able to have milk to satify the hunger?
How about next time when someone ask you whether you want to be financially free, try asking back what he means by financially free and has he achieve that?
Friday, January 15, 2010
Bo gehing soon :(
Ouch! My dentist asked to extract 2 of my loyal precious teeth that has serve me for 25yrs!!
Even when its still there the fear sets in already :( Will I loss my appetite?? Will I be in long intense pain?? Will I loss the ability to sing or even talk!!?? Oh no!!
But seeing the change happening, I can say I can only trust the dentist. When the extraction is done, more space for movement, I believe changes will be even more obvious! Yeh!!
Now just have to prepare mentally for the day to come by!! Having a buddhist dentist is rather interesting. To remove my fear and minimise pain he told me to stay mindful throughout the process.......but he also says maybe my fear arise from being too mindful....haha
Even when its still there the fear sets in already :( Will I loss my appetite?? Will I be in long intense pain?? Will I loss the ability to sing or even talk!!?? Oh no!!
But seeing the change happening, I can say I can only trust the dentist. When the extraction is done, more space for movement, I believe changes will be even more obvious! Yeh!!
Now just have to prepare mentally for the day to come by!! Having a buddhist dentist is rather interesting. To remove my fear and minimise pain he told me to stay mindful throughout the process.......but he also says maybe my fear arise from being too mindful....haha
Monday, January 11, 2010
Something I believe in :)
As passed down by the wise teacher, a wholesome decision made is a decision that is not selfish, ill-willed, wise and not out of fear. Satisfying all these criteria, a decision made are worthy of praise and works not just for personal happiness and gratification.
Often then not, we made decisions ranging from what clothes to wear to making life's decision and we often heard of people trusting their gut feel. But these gut feel to me is an accumulation of experience dictated by habits in how we perceive problems.
And gut feel to a pessimistic person or procrastinator will usually fall into their own habitual comfort zone, depriving them courage to step forward. Also, even upon making our mind on a well thought of decision, we procrastinated by analysing in circles.
Be brave and move forward! Dare to change and get your hand busy. If you think something is worth fighting for, brings happiness to yourself and your love ones, it is the best decision made. Worst decision can only happen when you give yourself up :)
Often then not, we made decisions ranging from what clothes to wear to making life's decision and we often heard of people trusting their gut feel. But these gut feel to me is an accumulation of experience dictated by habits in how we perceive problems.
And gut feel to a pessimistic person or procrastinator will usually fall into their own habitual comfort zone, depriving them courage to step forward. Also, even upon making our mind on a well thought of decision, we procrastinated by analysing in circles.
Be brave and move forward! Dare to change and get your hand busy. If you think something is worth fighting for, brings happiness to yourself and your love ones, it is the best decision made. Worst decision can only happen when you give yourself up :)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Avatar!
Great movie great companion! First time watching a movie where I can say I feel enlightening! Suspecting the director is the same "gang" as me!! muhaha. Any way here's my movie review! I give 5 popcorns out of 5!!
The first thing that strike me is upon wearing the 3D goggle the pics just jump on your face! Slight remembrance of the past where I visit the omnitheathre at Science Centre! But hmmm.....usually movie effects do not hold my interest for long. Just call me a born critics.
The first phrase that caught my eye was "You are such a baby. You never learn." We maybe the "smartest" of all sentient beings on earth but animals flee in face of danger but we create our on doom! We burn the ozone, wipe out the forest, poison our water and cuts eat others throat. Now we indeed never learn a single bit since ancient times.
The show depicts how our future world was ruled by powerful yet greedy capitalist and in order to mine a special mineral, decided to rob the forest from the natives "alien". In an unfortunate attacks from the wild animals, the lead in his avatar body infiltrate the alien "hometree". Later did the lead find himself turning from a macho Navy seal into learning how to appreciate the woods from the eyes of the native. The eyes tearing part happens when the human decided to drive their bull dozer in and later on turning their arm power in full force against the natives. The lead leads the natives in an afford to drive these "aliens" which is the humans out of the planet.
A very short intro as you need to catch the show to know how good it is. There is several scene where the seed of the holy tree will rest on the one with a true and strong heart. Thinking back, since when is the last time we ever let ourselves go and let nature embrace us.
The natives communicate with nature and animals not just by talking but also feeling them with their special probe like hair. We do not have probes sticking out but trust me, touch a dog and a cat, look into their eyes and you can feel their feelings and they will understand you too! Tried that, done that and results guaranteed.
We all have eyes that can not see the truth and ears that can not hear the truth too. All our interpersonal relationship ends up arguing due to not properly listening to what others said and feel. Words are cold and meaningless, what truely communicates are thoughts and feeling.
We humans are pathetic creatures, born and live by fear, succumbed by endless sufferings, one after another. We form countries and call ourself nations out of fear of invaders. We created weapon in fear of lossing our lives. We create drugs in fear of death. We amass wealth in fear of powerlessness. We even love and believe our beliefs out of fear. Yet in the show the best way to remove fear is to accept the environment as it is. We can only be victims to our own mind. The same mind can lead mankind to salvation and other lead to wars.
Another part that interest me is when the lead has trouble deciding which is the real world and when is he really awake. Just got a book today call "Joy of living" which says that having a troubled mind while practising mindfulness is good as someone promotes from just a living human into gaining abilities to assess and aware of his own mind. Not the exact word but is talking about inderstanding the world from inside you rather than being the prisoners of our wandering train of thoughts. If this is so, then I think most of the time we were never awake.
I also like the concept that the environment and us were all interconnected and nature knows us! If we were to harm the environment, we will one day fall prey to our ignorance.
The first thing that strike me is upon wearing the 3D goggle the pics just jump on your face! Slight remembrance of the past where I visit the omnitheathre at Science Centre! But hmmm.....usually movie effects do not hold my interest for long. Just call me a born critics.
The first phrase that caught my eye was "You are such a baby. You never learn." We maybe the "smartest" of all sentient beings on earth but animals flee in face of danger but we create our on doom! We burn the ozone, wipe out the forest, poison our water and cuts eat others throat. Now we indeed never learn a single bit since ancient times.
The show depicts how our future world was ruled by powerful yet greedy capitalist and in order to mine a special mineral, decided to rob the forest from the natives "alien". In an unfortunate attacks from the wild animals, the lead in his avatar body infiltrate the alien "hometree". Later did the lead find himself turning from a macho Navy seal into learning how to appreciate the woods from the eyes of the native. The eyes tearing part happens when the human decided to drive their bull dozer in and later on turning their arm power in full force against the natives. The lead leads the natives in an afford to drive these "aliens" which is the humans out of the planet.
A very short intro as you need to catch the show to know how good it is. There is several scene where the seed of the holy tree will rest on the one with a true and strong heart. Thinking back, since when is the last time we ever let ourselves go and let nature embrace us.
The natives communicate with nature and animals not just by talking but also feeling them with their special probe like hair. We do not have probes sticking out but trust me, touch a dog and a cat, look into their eyes and you can feel their feelings and they will understand you too! Tried that, done that and results guaranteed.
We all have eyes that can not see the truth and ears that can not hear the truth too. All our interpersonal relationship ends up arguing due to not properly listening to what others said and feel. Words are cold and meaningless, what truely communicates are thoughts and feeling.
We humans are pathetic creatures, born and live by fear, succumbed by endless sufferings, one after another. We form countries and call ourself nations out of fear of invaders. We created weapon in fear of lossing our lives. We create drugs in fear of death. We amass wealth in fear of powerlessness. We even love and believe our beliefs out of fear. Yet in the show the best way to remove fear is to accept the environment as it is. We can only be victims to our own mind. The same mind can lead mankind to salvation and other lead to wars.
Another part that interest me is when the lead has trouble deciding which is the real world and when is he really awake. Just got a book today call "Joy of living" which says that having a troubled mind while practising mindfulness is good as someone promotes from just a living human into gaining abilities to assess and aware of his own mind. Not the exact word but is talking about inderstanding the world from inside you rather than being the prisoners of our wandering train of thoughts. If this is so, then I think most of the time we were never awake.
I also like the concept that the environment and us were all interconnected and nature knows us! If we were to harm the environment, we will one day fall prey to our ignorance.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Embracing
How embracing love could be?? Does love comes only when passion arises. Then what are the source of passion?? Some fleeting good memories or some fonding characters that makes the heart go wild.
Then what are the extend of embracing. Agreeing to only what we can accept yet how about things that is dearest to your love but you can not accept. How often do we just listen to our head then lends your ears to our love, hearing their voice with our hearts. Love can at moments takes the freedom away yet can also set his love free, free to live her own life, using her own meanings and perspective for life. Only then I believe love is about embarking on a discovering journey, charting to unknown grounds, carrying love to a higher level day by day.
Then when disagreements get more by the day, cares becomes an liability, what holds a love? Memories still or just a waste to let go. Just like a cancer that threatens the life, is treatment the best way out? Love without communication, without understanding for each other and without even a common interest, is the a love to say.
Then what are the extend of embracing. Agreeing to only what we can accept yet how about things that is dearest to your love but you can not accept. How often do we just listen to our head then lends your ears to our love, hearing their voice with our hearts. Love can at moments takes the freedom away yet can also set his love free, free to live her own life, using her own meanings and perspective for life. Only then I believe love is about embarking on a discovering journey, charting to unknown grounds, carrying love to a higher level day by day.
Then when disagreements get more by the day, cares becomes an liability, what holds a love? Memories still or just a waste to let go. Just like a cancer that threatens the life, is treatment the best way out? Love without communication, without understanding for each other and without even a common interest, is the a love to say.
Gummy night so niam ti ti!
Great job gummers! We all like the Kumpung Sakara concept!! We were really puzzled at first why a temple has two place of celebration :)
I was greeted by familiar gummers right at the reception and everyone was chatting and laughing away. Here was I trying to catch hold of the friends that were coming from their previous celebrations!
We were then all assigned with a "job" to work in Sakara town but don't know why I hold 2 job!! muhahaha!! Why they never give present to most hardworking Sakara citizen :( I was a carpenter and a farmer! Reason being a farmer also needs house to stay :S Again, more mingle around with gummers as well as friends! Were asked to draw and cut out food to paste around the place and I think of just cutting a round shape for the bun!! Easy food i guess. Then we were asked to get our "Sakara town IC". Hahahahaha!!!
Performance started by song sharing my “生命中的朋友”，YAC people and a group call "Music graffti (not sure)" muhaha but all were nice. 生命中的朋友 even taught us the dance gesture hahaha!! All pointing moving around like mad!! yaya plus the YAC teaching us the gummers hand gesture!! I still know how to do leh!! Lets gum gum together.
After which, we were led to the open site outside Hall of Great Compassion. Its where the 108 bell gonging happens! The resonating sound from the big bell strike silence and peace in all of us. Everyone with their head bowed and hands on praying sign. I also lit the "wishing candles" shaped like a lotus and kneeled down infront of the giant Buddha Stattue. After the gonging we proceed to do out 88 Buddha chanting and along the way we just wish everyone happy new year!.
The chanting makes me feel old haha coz my knee can not stand kneeling for long! My knee just give way a few times. But the sound of chanting and all voices uniting in one was great!! Peace sets in and the chanting proved a great way to start the new year. As I gazed around with corner of my eyes, kids and teanager in fashion clothes were chanting! Some friends that were non buddhist I presume even bowed their heads and close their eyes throughout the session. I believe they are not sleeping :)
After paying out last respect to our teacher the Buddha we head home so physically drained! haha. Someone told me she chant till she in deep sleep. muhahhaa! And another feel like fainting! But to the deep sleep friend, don't stay up late at night and for the fainting friend, eat more red dates and gou chi zhi! Chanting shows u early health hazards hahahhaa!
Well spent new year where I laid down my goals and objective for the new year and I am holding to it dearly!! Yaya if on that night you raised your head just before the bell gonging, the clouds moved away leaving a hole for the moon to shine through and there is coloured circle surrounding the moon. Believe it as we make our way from our party area to the Main shrine, we are welcomed by gentle wind that felt like cottons on the skin and very slight drizzling that is so gentle that it just get carried around by the wind. I believe its so small that it just vapourise at the heat of our passion!
All in all I feel at peace throughout with joy just like meeting family members. I believe my words are dharmically correct since I believe we had been together in such instance for countless birth, bond so strong to be linked together life time after. As a buddhist seeing a familiar face on someone which is a total sranger is a common thing and just learn to embrace :)
I was greeted by familiar gummers right at the reception and everyone was chatting and laughing away. Here was I trying to catch hold of the friends that were coming from their previous celebrations!
We were then all assigned with a "job" to work in Sakara town but don't know why I hold 2 job!! muhahaha!! Why they never give present to most hardworking Sakara citizen :( I was a carpenter and a farmer! Reason being a farmer also needs house to stay :S Again, more mingle around with gummers as well as friends! Were asked to draw and cut out food to paste around the place and I think of just cutting a round shape for the bun!! Easy food i guess. Then we were asked to get our "Sakara town IC". Hahahahaha!!!
Performance started by song sharing my “生命中的朋友”，YAC people and a group call "Music graffti (not sure)" muhaha but all were nice. 生命中的朋友 even taught us the dance gesture hahaha!! All pointing moving around like mad!! yaya plus the YAC teaching us the gummers hand gesture!! I still know how to do leh!! Lets gum gum together.
After which, we were led to the open site outside Hall of Great Compassion. Its where the 108 bell gonging happens! The resonating sound from the big bell strike silence and peace in all of us. Everyone with their head bowed and hands on praying sign. I also lit the "wishing candles" shaped like a lotus and kneeled down infront of the giant Buddha Stattue. After the gonging we proceed to do out 88 Buddha chanting and along the way we just wish everyone happy new year!.
The chanting makes me feel old haha coz my knee can not stand kneeling for long! My knee just give way a few times. But the sound of chanting and all voices uniting in one was great!! Peace sets in and the chanting proved a great way to start the new year. As I gazed around with corner of my eyes, kids and teanager in fashion clothes were chanting! Some friends that were non buddhist I presume even bowed their heads and close their eyes throughout the session. I believe they are not sleeping :)
After paying out last respect to our teacher the Buddha we head home so physically drained! haha. Someone told me she chant till she in deep sleep. muhahhaa! And another feel like fainting! But to the deep sleep friend, don't stay up late at night and for the fainting friend, eat more red dates and gou chi zhi! Chanting shows u early health hazards hahahhaa!
Well spent new year where I laid down my goals and objective for the new year and I am holding to it dearly!! Yaya if on that night you raised your head just before the bell gonging, the clouds moved away leaving a hole for the moon to shine through and there is coloured circle surrounding the moon. Believe it as we make our way from our party area to the Main shrine, we are welcomed by gentle wind that felt like cottons on the skin and very slight drizzling that is so gentle that it just get carried around by the wind. I believe its so small that it just vapourise at the heat of our passion!
All in all I feel at peace throughout with joy just like meeting family members. I believe my words are dharmically correct since I believe we had been together in such instance for countless birth, bond so strong to be linked together life time after. As a buddhist seeing a familiar face on someone which is a total sranger is a common thing and just learn to embrace :)
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