Earth Songs

Hijacking M.Jackson's "Earth Song". It gives me goosebumps again. But something to ponder on.

World is today because each of us wants to create a world that we want it to be selfishly. Eons of battle fought to claim racial superiority, gain happiness that snatches others away. We all struggled to claim "ours".

But what happen to the "ours" when we pass away, landing the world into more irreversible destruction and definitely more sorrows.

A very familiar tone of "I can't sleep without air-con" becomes the familiar tone of "I can't survive with this climate" of our VERY NEAR dearest future generations.

World leaders now rallied to save mother earth to salvage the "still reversible" conditions but chained with conditions like profits.

World I believe could only sink deeper and deeper unless countries and nations' boundaries are removed and we are unitedly call earthlings! But will we ever live to see the day?.......or we just continue to consume and create a world class craft that bring us away from this "damned" place and start cursing another one......sound really like a typical VIRUS!

疲惫普通的一天

刚下了班，寂寞又疲惫的穿梭在人群中。
仿佛像其他的木头人，毫无表情与思想的走着。

但有时却好享受这与自己相处的时刻。
不需要伪装，不需要做任何不想做的。
暂时不去想要追求的，或要逃避的。
发现到坦诚对待别人比面对自己来得自然。

想起最近朋友问我为何坚持着不可能的。
或许着也算是对自己的了解，单纯的感觉吧。

打开电脑上网，第一间是就是看MSN。
这我相信是现代人的习惯。
看着与盼着那最想接近的远距离

可惜你不在

难道爱上的只是幻影，从不存在 。 。 。

Fathers' Day

Woke up with terrible headaches again but that has not down my mood for the day! My Karaoke competition in the temple! But something touching happens before that. . . surprisingly touching . . .

The whole event was keep on "Top secret" and the shifu just say its going to be a surprise. We just need to bring our father!

My day did not attend due to work commitment...and tat lucky...if not I'll be crying like mad!
The kids were made to kneel before their father and to serve tea! The moment the kids kneel down. I think the fathers were dumbfolded. Then the kids were asked to WASH their dads feet. I think this moment all dad cried, hugging their kids.....even the spectators, mums and whoever...all were touched by the scene.

The guy species we thought to be brave and the protector of the family. Thus since young we were told not to cry and through the years, we have forgot how to cry. Or even lost the meaning to cry. Most traditional Dad tend to have difficulty showing their care and love and thus delayed to say "I love you" to their kids. Dad being more experienced to the realty of society often seek to reprimand their kids and the kids often fail to see the reason behind.

Kids on the other hand, seeing their mum more than their dads tends to be closer to their mums. Kids also tend to delayed their "I love you". And true enough, being a kid myself....I am still pondering when or whether this words will come out from me . . .

Recently . . .

Starting of a new period of busy schedules again . . . . . difference is that the end seems unpredictable. Work has been fortunately increasing gradually but comparatively higher responsibilities. Just hope i can increase my efficiency as fast. Its a real blessing to work with caring and supportive management.

Life undergoing some changes as well. Risky but I know its worth it. Its going to a long and painful journey. And b'cos of this decision, a lot of sacrifices have to be made......might just have to give up on my pastime.....haiz.....

Skool starting next month and as from the tentative timetable, lesser time under my control. Again, there goes more dearest sacrifices. A valuable lesson from previous yr, I really need more than a 100% focus!

Did some thinking and had some session with fellow Dharma friends. Maybe its time to fine tune my directions and perspectives.

Life is fun as usual enjoying scenaries along the way, abit of the regular emotional roller coaster but sanity under check. Just have to bear with the occassional loneliness . . .

My sis's wedding

Hmm...hmm.......just back in SG hours ago. Went to Tg Pinang Bintan for my dearest sis's wedding. She looks marvelous on her big day. I suppose all gals look the best on theirs.

This sis was someone real special. Almost half of my childhood was in belief that she was my real sis that somehow got trap in a far foreign country. haha....remember our younger day together, she so bubbly and noisy and gets all hype out when we visited her in those days.

She grew up into someone very mature and shy yet very confident in handling her life. On the wedding dinner...she jus cried whenever we talk to her. I suppose the tonnes of memories are shown in those tears of hers. That day, my little sis have grown into a beautiful maiden, carry on her journey, her happiness.

Wishes all the best and have a blissful life ever after.

How small I am.

I like watching the sea . . . how vast it can be.
I like watching the clouds . . . to see how tiny we are.

Taken this inspiring pics of a the cabin of my ferry to Bintan. Indeed we are very tiny when we stand with nature but we carry the most worries.

Life struggles for fame and greatness seems so redundant once you see that the majestic clouds, always so high up overlooking the land. Blends so well with nature yet does not fight to stand out. It just moves and shapes as the wind blows . . .

Burn!

A person that lost the burning desire
Just like a phoenix that losses her flame.

Its is not about greed and desire
Its the passion for life, for what we believe in.

Keeping a positive mindset might not let you achieve
Having a negative mindset gives you no reason to continue.

We all have a fair share of difficulties and trouble
or even if someone is more unfortunate than others
yet victory can happen only to those that persevere on.

Not letting oneself down,
Not letting dearest one down,
Not letting life down!!

Headache sia!! Terrible!

Whole day headache sia! Terrible. Just had a slight fever on Saturday and developed into a full scale headache on Sunday.

But strange enough to be able to be in the usual happy and energetic self. After some vocal training, went down to Kellyn's house for our gathering. Enjoyed the night with great companionship and bonding. Drank a little beer and downed my mood a bit. Seems that beer indeed sets me into a more negative self. But I believe my mood fluctuation are definitely swayed by a larger emotional stimulant.

Rather confirmed on the cause of the stimulant but yet its strange that I can not jus remove but moving closer to it day by day.

Tug - O - War

( One day, Ms Cat saw Mr Dog and out of goodwill gave him a bone.)

Ms Cat: Nah. Bone for you. I know you are hungry. Meow!

Mr Dog: Hoof! I don't want and don't like.

Ms Cat: But . . . . . . all dogs like bone. Come take it you will love it. Its good for you.

Mr Dog: Because . . . . . .I have started to like fish.

Be happy :)

Whats happiness . . .

Happiness can be as simple as a kid upon receiving his candy. But happiness is often clouded by cravings for belonging, owning, control, power, fame, attention or even happiness itself.

To me happiness is about having a light mind. A mind free from burden, guilt, sorrow, hatred, delusion and tiredness. Yet also a mind free from happiness, expectation, result, performance and praises. A light mind just like a serene lake. A mind that is capable to observe itself.

And to achieve a light mind, just learn to let go with extras and pick up when there is a need to. A light mind to me can also be achieve by being with nature, listen to them, smell them, taste them and feel them. Looking at nature I get to remember the initial me.

Departures

Caught this movie in FGS . . . not the best plot I expected from a Jap production but an interesting one that looks at a more unconventional way to look at death. I am quite fascinated at how they treat the corpse with respect.

But what really caught my thoughts was a common scenario is all deaths....even to real life....the sorrows and grief for the departed. Almost all shows how they have neglected the departed ones and how they used to fight with each other. Then after one dies, the other feels the lost.

I suppose we took a lot of things for granted, especially our parents, be it genuine insensitivity or purposeful cold shoulder. Might be the restriction, pain and screams we gotten in the past which cause an imaginary wall between you and them. Only harsh words and indifference are exchanged.

Its not about who's right and who's in the wrong, yet one thing is for sure. You are going to miss each other a lot if one moves on. What's remaining are just photos that have been forgotten but successfully caught the happiest moment with them.