Sianz nor here nor there

Lotsa decision making to do. Sometimes just for a few seconds of thought, just wish not to care about everything anything.

Seems like problems come in cycles too be it personal and be it others....But still my logically tuned brain tells me to faced it, if not things will just snow ball. Escape just retards the process. Lotsa commitments too....just signal the green light, I know it all have to be all the way.

Had a nice chat with a very close friend. Learn a lot and through her I see the word success and responsibility. I asked her, "how do you keep going." She just say its a habit. Maybe its really a habit. A habit to take up responsibility and put your name on stake. And something remarkable is she never thinks of the possible rewards and need no rewards. There is no carrot yet she goes on, so strong so calm.

I've been gathering data from most people I meet. The formula to success the formula to perseverance. I think I have too comfortable a life and love ones are just always around supporting me.

I suppose now is to get all intention right and gear up with whatever confidence I have. Things that need to be done just have to be done. And I know I will grow. Putting down the past shackles and charge!

Bickering and gentle words!

Art to communication is to open your mouth using the correct word, to the correct person, at the correct time and correct situation. Swing to the extremes don't work! Too responsive and sensitivity will only breed long lasting quarrels and bitters. Too passive and suppressiveness leads to current peace and future magnified problems.

I am not the most suitable communicator but I prefer to listen before I say. That's why I have 2 prominent ears and one mouth. Bringing your point across is not about who's the winner but try to deal with the problem. But definitely not on problems that have past and problems that have yet to come.

Quarrels can be good. Its time to readjust mutual differences and expectation but do it when the situation requires as any strongholds can not withstand constant shocks. Relationship consist of both partners working hard for common goals. The strength for each other and the pillars for each other.

生命是无法替代的职业

生命是无法替代的职业。
在快乐时，没人能抢走。
在悲伤时，没人能代受。

咕咕落地，生命的第一刻。
牵着负着，生命的第一步。
跌倒哭了，生命的第一课。

生命的事业中还有更多的第一。
第一本书，第一个想要。
第一个承诺，一生爱的奉献。

但所有的第一，接着是无法挽回的时光。
在世的一切，棺木一概，不留痕迹。
留下的是美好与遗憾。

勇敢的接受生命，体会生命，感受生命。
生命就少几分遗憾，多几分的期待快乐。

The curtain has been drawn and does everything ends as well. Life is always full of conflicting views . . .

Quizzes to know you or me??

While preparing for my papers, every time-breaks now and then I'll log in to facebook and attempts the quizzes. And i see lotsa pals doing that too. . .i wonder . . .

I suppose most pple attempted IQ test before but personality test, how reliable could it be since it can never be effectively quantized. Then why do we take it?

Is it for after taking it to publish for everyone to see or to let us know ourselves better. If its for others to see, are we still faking a front? Its just what we are used to do in day times. Something we are all experts in doing. Isn't it?

If its for ourselves, to befriend ourselves, then who are we befriending and who are we looking for. To look for the dimes in the sands or looking for the real self in front of the mirror.

Who decides and who follows? Or is it who to decide . . .

Happy Vesak!

Another year of fruitful Vesak went by. To me, celebrating Vesak is not about identifying myself as a Buddhist but to let more people know what being a Buddhist is about. Behind all the celebrations and cheers, comes doing your part as a Buddhist to spread peace and confidence to people's life.
Vesak is about celebrating the coming of a boy that shed the light of truth to this world. Although as years passed, this day of tranquility and peace has been decorated with more basking activities and ritual, the heart to spread the teaching never dies. Its about using methods for deliverance on different people from different walks of life.

This year, I could see there is more crowd but is that a reflection of the growing followers or a snap shot of suffering in today's world.


Temple compound has created a good stage for wannabes to hone their skills and performance. And through the spirit of giving we carry back with more faith yet more experience that will help us in our lifes. After all, Buddhism is about us and Vesak is about us too.

People often wonders why do we busy ourselves so much with these events, but why not asking them why busy ourselves over activities by meeting people that don't need us, doing things that only satisfy the fleeting moments. We all have 24hrs, but its on how to use it that determines the future . . .

Being a youth, we have nothing. No experience no money, what we have is energy.









Religion is about the identifying sacred from the profane. But Buddhism I feel is for everything. After all what dictates sacred and profane . . .


The ending of Vesak ends the day but not Vesak. Spirit of Vesak should be in our mind everyday, every action and everything ways of life.

Felt really close . . . yet too afraid to move on . . .

Felt so close at times....
Yet at times there's still some unspoken barrier,
Sometime I wonder am I just a step away,
or am I no where near.

That day, that word, that someone...
is that a word with purpose,
or its just doesn't mean a thing.

If it's on purpose, then...
is that a test of reaction,
or its just an excuse for the closet.

I feel I am making progress,
but yet never for once I desire a perfect ending.
now where does the problem lies...