Felt really close . . . yet too afraid to move on . . .

Felt so close at times....
Yet at times there's still some unspoken barrier,
Sometime I wonder am I just a step away,
or am I no where near.

That day, that word, that someone...
is that a word with purpose,
or its just doesn't mean a thing.

If it's on purpose, then...
is that a test of reaction,
or its just an excuse for the closet.

I feel I am making progress,
but yet never for once I desire a perfect ending.
now where does the problem lies...