First day of CNY and first stop is to my grandma's house! That was kind of a norm practice every year since we just moved out when I am very very young. To say, that house has left behind some memories of my childhood. In fact I would say I have not much left and this house was the few could invoke some of my long forgotten memories.
Today, it was the first time I saw my grandma cried. It was not those tearful kind but brings with it some regrets and agony. My auntie had came to visit her and happened to talk about their past memories. The anguish feeling kicks in when grandma talked about how her siblings has passed away one by one. She too had lived a lonely life being a widow for nearly 30yrs.
It is definitely not a good feel when one day I know people around me will leave me one by one. The only think that is left are just memories. And often then not, memories does not work when I want them to.
I am just thinking, how would I be when I have reached this stage. Would I have more regrets or fond memories? Even if it is so, these fond memories would only leave behind loneliness and helplessness.
I suppose death is inevitable and since this is so, more should we show care and concern to people around us. We could never tell when we will leave them or they leaving us. Our tireless pursuing of our material happiness could never replace the regret of wanting to spend more time with our love ones when they one day passed away . . .
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